Following on from the blog about the integration of the shadow – I am here to do just that.
At some point along my journey, I have felt as though I’ve lost connection with a clear sense of purpose. Some days I waddle in self-pity which means I’ve clearly lost my way.
Here I am hoping to lay it out and realign myself to my motivations and purpose. Rather than thinking about why I am doing what I’m doing, I need to start with what I want out of life.
First of all, all I can think about is having a family and kids; as well as being the type of person who can provide and care for them. To do that I need to have the resources and know-how to raise the children as well as provide and care for my wife.
Second of all, my dream which stems from success and recognition is my goal to become a unicorn founder. To become the best business person I can be I have to put myself in situations where I can learn the skills I need to continuously make it to the next step in business. My fundamentals are great and I must continue to problem-solve to get to the next step each time I’m faced with a challenge.
Finally, I need to become the best person I can be. That means facing my fears and recognising my emotions as well as expressing them as best I can. Honesty is also a major value that I live by and to do that I also need to be better at being honest with my feelings and emotions. Whether that’s feelings of envy, jealousy or anger – I have to recognise them and accept them for what they are and channel them to resolve the personal issues that they are inevitably attached to.
In conclusion, there is alot for me to work on at this stage in my development. I have gone back a few steps in my self-development journey in the past couple of years and it’s well due for me to bounce back and embody my higher being.
I felt like I was slogging away without purpose but to realign myself like this is exactly what I needed.
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